Long time no see.

The fact is that my life sucks. Pretty bad. And I don't know how to make it a little less crappy. A job will do half the work, tho.

Oh yeah I'm still obsessed with Japan and such (don't know why but I had to point out this xD).

See you.

I so want to run away.

BREAKING NEWS!

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I probably like Girl U Need. No, I'm not saying that I love them like Ded Chaplin or other bands on a "similar level"(tho I think Ded Chaplin weren't meant to sink like that D:). Anyway I like (really REALLY like) 5 out of 11 songs. Yeah Make you Groove only makes me IRRITATED x°D, like with Get up... the other songs leave me about cold. I still consider the whole thing a bit... I don't know. Claimless? Maybe it was thought of as a claimless solo thing, I don't know. The thing that pisses me off the most is that is SOOOO NOTICEABLE x°°°°°°°D.


This is just because I can't stop listening to Down to the mirror and I can't explain why.

So, folks...

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MAI blue lp has finally landed.

It's some kind of flexible, transparent, BEAUTIFUL blue round thing that says : VIENNA - Overture, with tracklist (of course split on both sides... yeah I DID think: "Uh? Only three tracks?..." x°°°°D) and other things.

I'm happy.

Yeah I don't seem that much happy because of a certain death and another next one (this laptop) BUT, about a couple of meters away, behind me, lies a cute sturdy cardboard package that contains MAI blue lp, a SCARY poster (Ryu-san wins over Chacha-san. Real earrings win over clip ones, OF COURSE u___u espacially if white and bold and... what the hell were you thinking? x°D), AND, AND!!!! And a pretty pretty cardboard square with SIGNS!!!! Do you know what I mean? SIGNS!!! I guessed only Nagai-san's one at first. Then Chacha-san, than Ryu-san, and, going just for elimination X°D, Tsukamoto-san.

Then, I looked at the back of the "card". Ryu-san presses down. I've found this quite hilarious. Don't ask me why.

Anyway a REALLY smooth transaction. I was a bit worried about customs but luckily he's a SMART seller.

Why?

I could have lived wonderfully without listening to Faraway single, I know.
The title track is so poor that hurts, but anyway, Oblivious is the b-side, and this time was the second time I've listened to it since the live.
Not that it's such a moving/beautiful song, but I'm restraining from crying with all my might. It's annoying. It's that kind of unexpected crying that it's even more annoying.

GAH.

It reminds me of the last two days spent crying and walking and crying and walking and crying until I saw a Hello Kitty themed Hato Bus, and it was impossible to keep crying with a BIG YELLOW THING COVERED WITH THAT SILLY CAT. The same kind of cry that surprised me on the way back home, I was so desperate. I am so desperate. More than four months have passed but nothing has changed. Nothing. I want to go there again and STAY there.

It's ridiculous, it seems just a child whim, but it's not and every single fucking day I wake up thinking about how I'm wasting my life staying here in this hell when I know perfectly where I should be. And it's even more desperate and much much more ridiculous because I also know perfectly that I'm not in a position to hope for that, because there's no way I could do it. No fucking way. And still I can't think about anything else, and I read of those lucky expats that MADE IT, and I think "They're there, and I'm not. Fuck." It's painful. Totally painful.

So.

So, what's the point in keeping this shady blog?

To tease you with my latest shopping raids, of course!

As you may know, I spotted the blue LP on ebay, some times ago.
170 bucks. Pricey. But rare. Vienna's fans are like FIFTEEN around the world Japan included, me included, but the seller knew that it's an extremely rare thing, so I could just lower the price by 20 dollaros ç____ç (I've started with 120...)
Yesterday I confirmed the whole thing, so now I'm waiting.

FOR MAI BLUE LP!!!!!

I'm happy, and that's strange.

Hope & disillusion.

I strongly hope this is all sort of "test", kind of "let's make these out as singles and see what will happen".

I'm not too convinced this are just "plain", "standard" releases.

As far as I've listened to, this is crap. Both A and B side. I don't think I'll change my mind if I keep listening to this. That's what I'm afraid of.

Anyway, as far as I've listened to x°D, I strongly hope in a bad feedback. It's cruel, but come on! This cannot make an album!!! I don't want this crap to be recorded as an album!

Things that I'm not supposed to see...

... but I see anyway.

Like, and it's just a mere example, Faraway Dears only cover.

Setting aside Gackt-san, surely Japanese diet is something else. Keep in mind that the younger one is about 35. I suppose I'll sit here for a while, with my legs carefully and elegantly crossed, my chin in hand, thinking.

I'm not worried. I'm not worried. I'm not worried. etc etc