Long time no see.

The fact is that my life sucks. Pretty bad. And I don't know how to make it a little less crappy. A job will do half the work, tho.

Oh yeah I'm still obsessed with Japan and such (don't know why but I had to point out this xD).

See you.

I so want to run away.

BREAKING NEWS!

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I probably like Girl U Need. No, I'm not saying that I love them like Ded Chaplin or other bands on a "similar level"(tho I think Ded Chaplin weren't meant to sink like that D:). Anyway I like (really REALLY like) 5 out of 11 songs. Yeah Make you Groove only makes me IRRITATED x°D, like with Get up... the other songs leave me about cold. I still consider the whole thing a bit... I don't know. Claimless? Maybe it was thought of as a claimless solo thing, I don't know. The thing that pisses me off the most is that is SOOOO NOTICEABLE x°°°°°°°D.


This is just because I can't stop listening to Down to the mirror and I can't explain why.

So, folks...

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MAI blue lp has finally landed.

It's some kind of flexible, transparent, BEAUTIFUL blue round thing that says : VIENNA - Overture, with tracklist (of course split on both sides... yeah I DID think: "Uh? Only three tracks?..." x°°°°D) and other things.

I'm happy.

Yeah I don't seem that much happy because of a certain death and another next one (this laptop) BUT, about a couple of meters away, behind me, lies a cute sturdy cardboard package that contains MAI blue lp, a SCARY poster (Ryu-san wins over Chacha-san. Real earrings win over clip ones, OF COURSE u___u espacially if white and bold and... what the hell were you thinking? x°D), AND, AND!!!! And a pretty pretty cardboard square with SIGNS!!!! Do you know what I mean? SIGNS!!! I guessed only Nagai-san's one at first. Then Chacha-san, than Ryu-san, and, going just for elimination X°D, Tsukamoto-san.

Then, I looked at the back of the "card". Ryu-san presses down. I've found this quite hilarious. Don't ask me why.

Anyway a REALLY smooth transaction. I was a bit worried about customs but luckily he's a SMART seller.

Why?

I could have lived wonderfully without listening to Faraway single, I know.
The title track is so poor that hurts, but anyway, Oblivious is the b-side, and this time was the second time I've listened to it since the live.
Not that it's such a moving/beautiful song, but I'm restraining from crying with all my might. It's annoying. It's that kind of unexpected crying that it's even more annoying.

GAH.

It reminds me of the last two days spent crying and walking and crying and walking and crying until I saw a Hello Kitty themed Hato Bus, and it was impossible to keep crying with a BIG YELLOW THING COVERED WITH THAT SILLY CAT. The same kind of cry that surprised me on the way back home, I was so desperate. I am so desperate. More than four months have passed but nothing has changed. Nothing. I want to go there again and STAY there.

It's ridiculous, it seems just a child whim, but it's not and every single fucking day I wake up thinking about how I'm wasting my life staying here in this hell when I know perfectly where I should be. And it's even more desperate and much much more ridiculous because I also know perfectly that I'm not in a position to hope for that, because there's no way I could do it. No fucking way. And still I can't think about anything else, and I read of those lucky expats that MADE IT, and I think "They're there, and I'm not. Fuck." It's painful. Totally painful.

So.

So, what's the point in keeping this shady blog?

To tease you with my latest shopping raids, of course!

As you may know, I spotted the blue LP on ebay, some times ago.
170 bucks. Pricey. But rare. Vienna's fans are like FIFTEEN around the world Japan included, me included, but the seller knew that it's an extremely rare thing, so I could just lower the price by 20 dollaros ç____ç (I've started with 120...)
Yesterday I confirmed the whole thing, so now I'm waiting.

FOR MAI BLUE LP!!!!!

I'm happy, and that's strange.

Hope & disillusion.

I strongly hope this is all sort of "test", kind of "let's make these out as singles and see what will happen".

I'm not too convinced this are just "plain", "standard" releases.

As far as I've listened to, this is crap. Both A and B side. I don't think I'll change my mind if I keep listening to this. That's what I'm afraid of.

Anyway, as far as I've listened to x°D, I strongly hope in a bad feedback. It's cruel, but come on! This cannot make an album!!! I don't want this crap to be recorded as an album!

Things that I'm not supposed to see...

... but I see anyway.

Like, and it's just a mere example, Faraway Dears only cover.

Setting aside Gackt-san, surely Japanese diet is something else. Keep in mind that the younger one is about 35. I suppose I'll sit here for a while, with my legs carefully and elegantly crossed, my chin in hand, thinking.

I'm not worried. I'm not worried. I'm not worried. etc etc

"How are you today?"

And it's a Dear asking me that! (just noticed x°°°°°°°°°°D)
Anyway it's strange. Only people far from you (any meaning you will think of is pretty coherent) ask this kind of questions. Or people that doesn't understand you at all.

But, anyway, A DEAR IS ASKING ME HOW I FEEL TODAY! I'm moved. Ok, stop it. Pretty blank, that's how I feel today. But I don't think this would be a proper answer.

(but this was yesterday or two days ago, I can't remember... anyway I answered, and now actually don't remember what exactly I've answered... not that forgetting about post this will bring the Universe to explode, no... but...)

Look at...

... this page, and tell me if it doesn't seem some kind of dejavoux.

Kiiiiiiiidding. I just found funny that the font is almost the same as the... old one.


Wooooooh I've just spotted the myspace link! *going add sacchan to her frrrrrrrrriends*

Girly? Well I should be like that more. It's sooooo funny.

(read: "I'm so pissed off and this feeling is so piling up inside and outside that I've almost became cheerful, by lapping it")

Things I'm currently doing:

- complaining;
- pretending to be studying grammar;
- complaining;
- struggle for memorize some useless kanji for exams that I'll never take(read: "complaining");
- blame the world recession for not allow me to fleeeeee to Japan again any sooner than never.

I'm really on the edge. Not that I'm going to kill my parents or such, I don't know, "change of season" things, but I've had really enough. And thinking that this situation can go on and on and on for WHO KNOWS how many years more... well, it's not that easy.

That, and my parents doing their dirty job a.k.a. PISSING ME OFF with their incredible delicacy, like: "As you get your last salary, give it to me so that if we'll use it if it's needed."

What?

I've worked from 1 to 3/22, my last "month", I had to be paid for 9 hours more coming from the previous month(those faggots REALLY don't know how to count! Amazing!), plus the severance payment made me plan something, as usually people do.

But I've got 561 euros.

I was so speechless. And then, How am I supposed to give all the money to my parents? Am I that crazy? It's not a matter of "help the family" or such bullshits. I'm 25 years old, I'm unemployed, I've got to pay for the phone bills and the sat-tv(a thing that I cannot remove because my mother MUST watch some stupid OLD OLD OLD tv series, but I'm the one to blame here, really), I've just get 561 euros that have already halved because of the bills, and I have to give the change to my parents? And me? I worked for that money, not them. Don't they realize that with them being less FOOL, in the past, maybe I would be graduated by now, away from home, WORKING? Do I have REALLY to remind them that they fucked up my life pretty badly since its beginning? Do I have to make them aware of the pedophile they make me live with for years, without noticing a fucking thing? Do I really have to go that far?

So, I've put on my real self. I'm tired of being the happy fool of the court just to entertain them. I'm sick of this. It's already 17 years of this shit. I didn't beg my mother to have me. I didn't force her in getting together with that idiot of my father, Christ. She knew he was just an idiot, so why? Pity? Oh, thanks, pitiful mother. Look at what you've done.

I'm so tired, I want to go back to Japan but mostly I want to get away from here. I want a job, that would allow me to live and maybe save something, any sum, even the littlest one, just for me. Not for pay for my parents mistakes. And not a job (like the current one) for which I'm not even paid. "Because, in a family, you help each other". Sure. Cool.

Playlist: as...as...as...as...as...as...as...as...as...as...as...as...as...

... and guess what?

As.

Four years. Repeatedly. On loop. Luckily, files don't get scratches like records/cds.

NO, I can't possibly write just that. Come on.

Uhm, report from tokyo. Yes, I know. But my mood is like your ball falling down a hill close to you and YET you can't catch it. And then, a river/stream/ravine ends the game.

Really, I shouldn't take these things too seriously, I know that much. But geeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeez my life sucks. Sucks used socks. And that's a bad habit. Mostly for socks that, even if used, surely want to keep their dignity like every other pair of wearable things around your house.

So THINK! before sucking your socks.

You're probably infringing the Geneva Convention.

"to infringe" is the cool verb of the week.

It escapes me.

But, since there should be a meaning to the...gyaru feeling that the singles covers I've just seen convey, I don't want to question ANYTHING about that, especially because is not even nine a.m., I'm tired, sick, and I have to make bread now.

Cheers.

Speechless.

This is just a blow below the belt.

You're kidding.

170 bucks? HA! I'm not that crazy.

Even with free shipping.

Actually they're about 130 euros, seeing the current change.

And there's a pretty pretty "best offer" button below the "buy now" one.

I'm shivering. I'm shacking. I'm slightly hyper. But mostly, I'll be a returning officer in two elections, this year.

I think I've found my birthday present.

I so hope no one else will find it. So hoping for that.

Good grief.

Just noticed that...

... it's not like my weekly obsessions remain frozen at the time of the post. No. Last.fm is not that smart. So, since I'm a biiit smarter that it but still a big air-headed fangirl, I'll add the widget in the cute column at your right.

Enjoy.

I'm freezing, by the way.

Aw, I forgot.

Charts!

You know you want them. Or, better: You still don't know you want them, but you feel unexpectedly attracted to them. Anyway, FEEL NO GUILT! FREE YOU MIND!("...and your ass will follow", catch the quote)








So...opposite results, I see...like, rentrer from one side and Beehive from the other...uhmm...

DA visual shock.

Usually I don't rant about my anime obsession, my translations or such things (YES! I translate! Shocking ne?), but SEBASTIAN POUNDING A NUN deserves a post here.

SEBASTIAN
POUNDING
A

NUN.

I still haven't decided if this is a win or a fail, but sure it's EPIC.

Yes, Kuroshitsuji is almost old already, but I'm so interested in the RANDOMEST series ever that I prefer to follow ep by ep as I translate it. I mean, this is a light-speed DROP.

And it's annoying, since most of the gags are pretty hilarious, and the plot is intriguing, IF ONLY CERTAIN WRITERS WOULD KNOW HOW TO WRITE, or at least how to keep a decent balance in this shonen/yaoi/romance/decadent/comical/whatever MESS.

Enjoy your moment of fanservice, now:

Gross, lame, both and in loop.

... Exactly, why am I here now?

No, no subtle existential crap, no no.

Like. It's half past midnight, and I'm stuck listening to Beehive's Rockin' All Night, (let's say it) a mildly crappy song.

Uhm, so, why am I listening to it so darn persistently(ah bugs bless TEH online dict inventor u_u)?

Because 02:32~02:58 IZ LUV.

That's all. Dismissed. Good night. Well, you go to bed, I stay here for some others 26 seconds more.

And it's so darn frustating since I'm probably the only human being fussing about this x°°°°D Frustating and hilarious.

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So, since my precious report is not that much precious anyway and I'm already depressed enough from everyday "living", let's introduce the "Last.fm Weekly Charts"! Surprised? Amused? Interested? Me neither.

(blue lagoon) No matter...

... how much I'm raising the volume, it just sounds too much far.(yeah baby this IS fangirlism!!!)

Tour has ended about five hours ago ^^/ おめでとうございます!!!

Yes, just this.

Currently doings:

- staring at that fucking shitty adsl router that SHOULD get me connected safely and fast but that's actually blinking like a Christmas Tree. AND IT'S NOT EVEN JUNE!

- making origami stars with old manga magazines. Yes, SO GIRLISH! Feeling almost accomplished as a XX chromosome representative.

- listening to The Vapors' 2nd EP. So darn boring early 80's British new wave: the absolute best u_u

recently done: changed wallpaper. And so what? Oh, nothing. It's just a scan from a interiors men magazine that shows a recording studio, its owner (in probably the most LOOKING-AWFULLY-OLDER pose ever x°D just a wide wine glass with an inch of PORTO is missing X°°°°D) aaaaaaaaaaand...

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... a guitar. That actually I didn't noticed at the beginning, but which was the ONLY reason why now I've got that picture on my good ole 1024x768 pxs monolith-like monitor.

And that's why I'm feeling so satisfied right now!!! ( n_n)y